Soul_on_Fire

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Tue, 14 Aug 2007 17:15:51 GMT

I forgot about this livejournal for a sec there. After reading the back post and everything I can understand why. I used this jounal for a very hard time in my life.

I went out with my sister's Ex-boyfriend just because he liked me and I missed having someone there so I went along with him. Lasted about a week and he moved on to better. Made me feel like shit in so many different ways.

Well NOW I am happy to say that I have found my one and only and he loves me and thinks I am great. He has helped me and o my eyes to the world. He means everything to me and we are happy.

Next was the whole mom leaving us. I think that has had to be te hardest thing I have had to deal with in my whole life. If it wasn't for Jessica, Lindsey, and Josh I don think I would ha made it. Thank you guys! I love you all.

Mom is back and better now but something is still not right. Things between us just isn't the same. I can't understand why but I am trying to just be happy with the fact that she is back.

I am not sure if i'll be using his journal anymore but I just wanted to lear some things up just incase anyone still reads.

missing

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 20:15:02 GMT

Things are really stressing me out this morning. I was watching my Linkin Park DVD and I started thinking about my mom and I started crying. I really miss her being home. I miss being able to talk to her when I want. I miss her hugs. I miss having a mom...

Funny!

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 23:57:22 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In July I donated bone marrow to cateyes0831 in a life-saving procedure (300 points). In January I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). Last week I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). Last Tuesday I bought porn for _lost_whispers_ (10 points). In September on a flight to Vancouver, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points).

Overall, I've been nice (263 points). For Christmas I deserve a pony!

Sincerely,
endless_dark31

Bullshit!

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 06:11:54 GMT

Maybe if I stop caring people will be happy.

Vanishing!

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 04:54:04 GMT

Because of You

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 14:54:11 GMT

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

BoReD!!!

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 05:20:20 GMT

HIM Lyrics...

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 01:38:33 GMT

A moth into a butterfly
And a lie
Into the sweetest truth
I'm so afraid of life

I try
To call your name but I'm
Silenced by the fear of dying in your heart once again

I see the seasons changing
And in the heart of this autumn I fall
With the leaves from the trees

I play dead
To hide my heart
Until the world gone dark fades away

I cry
Like God cries the rain
And I'm just one step away from the end of today

I see the reasons changing
And in the warmth of the past I crawl
Scorched by the shame

I play dead
To hide my heart
Until the world gone dark fades away

I stay dead
Until you veil my scars and say goodbye to fate
Before it's too late

Fun Fun...

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 23:15:40 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Angelique
Birthday:	8/31/86
Birthplace:	Tampa, FL
Current Location:	Tampa, FL
Eye Color:	Hazel
Hair Color:	Brown/Red
Height:	5'5
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Work Shoes
Your Weakness:	Myself
Your Fears:	Bugs
Your Perfect Pizza:	Cheese with sweet sauce
Your Most Overused Phrase On an IM:	No worries/LOL
Thoughts First Waking Up:	What time is it?
Your Best Physical Feature:	My eyes?
Your Bedtime:	When I get tired
Your Most Missed Memory:	Back when I had no worries
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	MacDonalds
Single or Group Dates:	Both...depends
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee
Do you Smoke:	NO
Do you Swear:	YES
Do you Sing:	Yeppers
Do you Shower Daily:	Yeppers
Have you Been in Love:	Yes
Do you want to go to College:	Yes
Do you want to get Married:	Someday
Do you belive in yourself:	No
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No
Do you think you are Attractive:	No
Are you a Health Freak:	No
Do you get along with your Parents:	Yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Love them
Do you play an Instrument:	I wish
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No
In the past month have you Smoked:	No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Never
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yes I have =^.^=
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Work there -_-
Have you ever eaten a box of Oreos:	Yeah
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Nope
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Nope
Ever been Drunk:	Nope
Ever been called a Tease:	Yeah
Ever been Beaten up:	Nah
Ever Shoplifted:	Yeah
How do you want to Die:	In my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Don't know -_-
What country would you most like to Visit:	Finland
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Don't care but Hazel is pretty nice...
Favourite Hair Color:	Don't care
Short or Long Hair:	I have this thing for guys with long hair but short is fine too
Height:	Taller then me
Weight:	doesn't matter
Best Clothing Style:	Whatever
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None
Number of CDs I own:	Lots
Number of Piercings on your girlfriend:	Don't have a girlfriend...
Number of Tattoos:	None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Nothing
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Took from Ryan!

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 22:19:53 GMT

"So today I went to see Dr. Murdock and he told me I was suffering from corruptionoftheearsbycrappymusicitus. Apparently the only way to cure it is to hit whales with a metal stick. Now, as you may or may not know, I am a strong supporter of the Get Your Hand Off Of My Leg Or I'll Take Out Your Liver With A Serated Stick Organization. So, naturally, I took off my glasses and dived right in. Dived into what, you may ask? A gallon of liquidated bananas. That's all for the days events. You're fired, get out of my house!!"

He is a weird one...

Lyrics

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 05:37:07 GMT

"Close To The Flame"

The kiss sweetest
And touch so warm
The smile kindest
In this world so cold and strong

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away
And leave us lonely

The arms safest
And words, so good
The faith deepest
In this world so cold and cruel

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away
And leave us lonely

Friends Only!

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 05:52:31 GMT